Hey baby! Long time, no write. I'm excited to revive this method of communication as we are a little more grounded this year, allowing me to take the time to do this. With that being said, let's jump right in!
I'll just cut to the chase -- I have felt more loved by you in this past week than I have probably since our Honeymoon. I don't say that to discourage you to make you feel bad about the past, but to encourage for the future you in how happy I have been lately to be your wife (not to say I was ever unhappy being married to you, but not always happy in my day-to-day life). There has been a massive difference in the way you are expressing being a husband to me. By that I mean... well, you know what I mean. I had a really hard time for a while feeling really undervalued and underappreciated. I had a small seed of resentment that was planted from those feelings and I wanted to uproot it before it sprouted and ruined our marriage before we even got truly started and had a fighting chance at life together. However, ever since the I sent you my novel of raw emotions and you took some time on your run to really sit in that and let my words resonate, there's been a radical shift. After your "speech" when I said "he left a boy and came back a man" and you responded "not yet -- I have to prove it." ... I knew you meant business. And boy did you set out to deliver. I know it's only been a week, but you have no idea the weight I feel has been lifted from me -- I feel as though I can breathe and simply just exist. I feel so cherished and adored by you, even just the little things of not just bringing the flowers but adding in the popcorn for a surprise at home movie/date night was so sweet and made me feel like you really were thinking about me and how you could make me smile, which has allowed me to see you as more of a lover. Going and double checking all the lights and locks before bed without me even saying a word has genuinely been such a load off of me and through that it has developed a deeper sense of trust that I can have in you as a protector. Seeing you speak up more in CG and being excited to be involved in our new role has allowed me to see you more as a leader. Your help and input (and excitement) when looking into what city we want to move to has allowed me to see you more as a provider. I'm not sure what it was, and like you said, sometimes you just need to be called out by someone, but it's not just thanks to me. I might've said what needed to be said, but you put in the mental work of figuring out what needed to change and then physically began implementing those changes. And as of late, I have felt more adored, respected, loved, appreciated, and seen by you than I have in a very long time. You being so willing to accept faults and make changes showed me more about your character than anything else. And for that I am really grateful to call you mine.
